All the Colors of the Dark
by Chris Whitaker
Contents
Chapter 73
Overview
Patch, worn down by guilt and failure, goes to St. Raphael's looking not for absolution but for help. His conversation with Dr. Tooms deepens the novel's moral tension: Patch is told he cannot fix everything, while Tooms admits he asks forgiveness for sins he expects to repeat. The exchange leaves Patch no easy comfort and casts Tooms in a more ominous, spiritually compromised light.
Summary
Exhausted and feeling like a failure, Patch goes to St. Raphael's church at the quiet hour between sunset and sunrise because the sleeping town makes him feel closest to Grace. Drawn by that need, he enters the always-unlocked building and sits near the front, thinking about asking for help.
Patch notices Dr. Tooms praying nearby and waits until the doctor finishes. When Patch asks whether there is a priest, Dr. Tooms says no, and Patch wonders if confessing every bad thing to God would change anything. Dr. Tooms answers bluntly that the acts would still have been done, which leads Patch to admit that he does not want forgiveness so much as help.
Patch explains that when he was trapped below ground, he and others repeated scripture to stay alive, but now those words feel too vague to guide him. In response, Dr. Tooms tells Patch that fixing everything is not Patch's job, shifting Patch's desperation toward a harder truth about his limits. When Patch asks why Dr. Tooms is at church, Dr. Tooms reveals that he comes to seek forgiveness for acts he already knows he will commit again, ending the scene on a dark note as he says God still ignores him.
Who Appears
- PatchExhausted and guilt-ridden, he goes to church seeking help rather than forgiveness.
- Dr. ToomsDoctor found praying at St. Raphael's; counsels Patch, then admits he expects to repeat his sins.