Chapter Thirty-Eight: Four Years Earlier
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Four years earlier, Damian (posing as Jonathan in other threads) resumed a sexual relationship with Amanda while manipulating her for money under the guise of medical treatment. He pressured her to ask her estranged, wealthy sister Bella for a loan, promising future payback from funds allegedly withheld by his ex. Separately, Damian was confronted at a café for harassing a waitress and, despite seething anger, left after extracting a free slice of cake and stealing tip money.
Summary
Damian described moving from the sofa back into Amanda’s bed and reigniting intimacy by flattering her and recounting hardship with his “lunatic” ex. He admitted using fantasies about a young café worker to fuel his sexual excitement while sleeping with Amanda, framing Amanda’s lingering love as leverage.
He asked Amanda for more cash, claiming urgent travel and hotel costs for experimental medical treatment. Amanda revealed she had already borrowed £400 from her son Joel and could not ask again, nor from her other son Sam. Damian dismissed asking his elderly mother and pivoted to promises of repayment from more than £500,000 he said his ex had withheld, dangling a future together once his money “cleared.”
Damian pushed Amanda toward the solution he wanted: requesting money from her estranged, affluent sister Bella, despite a past loan of £50,000 that had damaged their relationship. He suggested Amanda lie about being ill to secure private medical funds and even proposed asking for a larger amount to “tide” them over and celebrate the end of his treatment with a trip.
Amanda resisted, lamenting how life was simpler without Damian, but her affection resurfaced. After visible internal conflict, she reluctantly agreed to ask Bella and told Damian to leave it with her.
The next day, Damian returned to the café. The manager privately confronted him, saying the waitress reported that Damian’s staring, proximity, and even smelling her hair or neck made her feel uncomfortable, and asked him not to return. Damian masked his rage, denied impropriety, criticized the waitress as sullen, and agreed to leave.
Before exiting, Damian accepted a complimentary slice of cake and, while the manager’s back was turned, emptied the tip jar into his hand, then ostentatiously dropped a single pound back in, offering a pointed farewell glance toward the waitress.
Who Appears
- Damian
narrator; manipulates Amanda for money under false pretenses of medical treatment; resumes sex with her; harasses a café worker; steals tips.
- Amanda
Damian’s former wife/partner; conflicted but resumes intimacy; had borrowed £400 from son Joel; reluctantly agrees to ask sister Bella for more money.
- Kadija
café waitress; target of Damian’s fixation; reports his behavior, leading to his ban from the café.
- Café manager
confronts Damian about Kadija’s complaint; bans him but offers a free item.
- Bella
Amanda’s wealthy sister; estranged; prior £50,000 loan; discussed as the person Amanda will ask for money.
- Joel
Amanda’s son; previously lent Amanda £400 (via Amanda borrowing from him) to pass to Damian; mentioned.
- Sam
Amanda’s other son; in debt; mentioned as someone Amanda cannot ask for money.