Chapter 32

Contains spoilers

Overview

After dropping Jan at his hotel, Lukas drives Scarlett home and maintains a cool distance as she confronts his planned period of self-denial. He admits being overwhelmed by losing control and having wanted her while resisting. Scarlett decides she cannot be with someone who resents wanting her, says goodbye, and walks away.

Summary

After Jan hugs Scarlett goodbye and gives her his email, Lukas drops Jan at his hotel and, without discussion, drives Scarlett home. In the car he is silent, even unbuckling both their seat belts before turning to face her, waiting for Scarlett to speak.

Scarlett asks how long he planned to deny himself before reaching out again. Lukas answers: fifteen days. He describes nearly calling early on, going to the dining hall when Pen mentioned lunch with Scarlett, and then being occupied once Jan arrived. Scarlett challenges being treated like a schedule or habit and points out she might have told him off on day fifteen.

Lukas says part of him hoped she would, admitting that being around her sometimes feels overwhelming and that he does not enjoy losing control. Scarlett notes he has no frame of reference and that she is likely his first non-vanilla partner, but the emotional distance in his tone underscores the disconnect.

Recognizing the cost to her, Scarlett concludes that even if it is only sex, she cannot be with someone who resents wanting her. She squeezes Lukas’s hand, says goodbye, and leaves. He does not stop her, and she does not look back.

Who Appears

  • Scarlett
    Confronts Lukas about his planned self-denial; sets a boundary and ends their relationship.
  • Lukas Novak
    Admits to a fifteen-day plan, feels overwhelmed by losing control, and lets Scarlett walk away.
  • Jan
    Says goodbye with a hug and email; his visit occupies Lukas during the self-denial period.
  • Pen
    Mentioned; her lunch with Scarlett prompts Lukas to go look for them during his abstinence.
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