Reckless
by Lauren Roberts
Contents
Chapter 19: Paedyn
Overview
During the desert crossing, Kai tightens his control over Paedyn while also protecting her from his own men, revealing how possessiveness and lingering attachment now shape their dynamic. He heals her worsening leg but keeps her under close watch, and Paedyn uses his brief trust to steal a dagger and regain a hidden advantage. Their final conversation about Kitt raises the stakes further, because even Kai cannot predict what the unstable new king will do to her.
Summary
As Kai's group prepares to cross the desert at night, Paedyn is kept bound and mocked for being an Ordinary worth such heavy guard. When an Imperial soldier grabs her hair, threatens her, and calls her filthy, Kai immediately intervenes and makes clear that no one else is to touch her. Paedyn recognizes that his anger is not kindness but control: he sees her as his prisoner, and he wants that possession challenged by no one.
Paedyn refuses to ride a horse, partly out of inexperience and fear, so Kai ties her wrists to his horse and makes her walk beside him through the sand. As the march continues, her injured leg worsens and she begins to limp. Kai finally stops, crouches in front of her, and heals the wound by drawing on a Healer somewhere in the party. He explains that he waited because, in a crowded city, a fully healed Paedyn would have had a better chance of escaping.
The pause sharpens their emotional conflict. Paedyn notes that Kai fears her, and Kai admits he would be a fool not to fear someone so fierce, adding that he is not a fool anymore. When the march resumes, Paedyn notices a dagger at his side and begins planning. Pretending exhaustion, she asks to ride, then tricks Kai into cutting her wrists free and helping her mount. While feigning panic and flailing in his arms, she steals the dagger and drops it into her boot, cutting her ankle but successfully hiding the weapon.
After demanding help a second time, Paedyn is finally placed on the horse with Kai seated directly behind her so he can keep her where he can see her. Their close proximity revives the complicated familiarity between them, but Kai remains focused on control and preventing escape. During the ride, Paedyn asks what Kitt will do to her. Kai admits he does not know and says Kitt is still the same hollow, damaged man she left behind, only now trying to fill a king's role. From that answer, Paedyn concludes that she is likely riding toward death.
Who Appears
- PaedynCaptive narrator who endures the march, manipulates Kai, and secretly steals a dagger.
- Kai AzerPrince and Enforcer escorting Paedyn; threatens his soldier, heals her leg, and keeps her close.
- Unnamed Imperial soldierImperial who insults and manhandles Paedyn until Kai sharply warns him off.
- KittAbsent new king whose unstable state makes Paedyn fear what awaits her.