Reckless
by Lauren Roberts
Contents
Chapter 39: Paedyn
Overview
While sheltering from a storm, Paedyn and Kai uncover life-altering truths inside her father’s journal. The entries expose the king’s lie about Ordinaries, reveal that Paedyn’s father helped found the Resistance, and force Kai to confront that his service as Enforcer made him complicit in killing innocents. The chapter also shatters Paedyn’s sense of identity by revealing that she was adopted, while reaffirming that her father’s love for her was a deliberate choice.
Summary
After leaving the hidden pool, Paedyn and Kai linger together in the rain, enjoying a rare moment of peace until lightning forces them to move. They discover that the horse has fled in the storm, find shelter beneath a rock overhang, and gather wet firewood while still chained together. Because the wood will not catch, Paedyn sacrifices pages from her late father’s journal to start a fire.
As the fire strengthens, Paedyn reads deeper into the journal and realizes that part of it is not medical research but a personal record. The earliest entries reveal that the king pressured Paedyn’s father, a Healer, to leave the slums and join the palace, while bribing other Healers to support the lie that Ordinaries carry a disease that weakens Elites. Paedyn immediately recognizes this as proof that the kingdom’s central justification for persecuting Ordinaries is false. Kai is shaken because the revelation means his work as Enforcer was not protecting Ilya from infection, but helping the king murder innocent people.
Paedyn continues reading and learns that her father began building what became the Resistance by secretly gathering Ordinaries, training them to pass as Elites, and later working with a Mind Reader named Calum. The journal also records her father’s love for a woman named Alice, their marriage, and her pregnancy. Then the entries turn devastating: Alice dies in childbirth, along with her baby girl, and Paedyn’s father buries them both.
The next entry reveals that Paedyn was not the child Alice died giving birth to. Instead, someone left a silver-haired infant on Paedyn’s father’s doorstep, and he chose to raise her as his own, giving her the name Alice had selected. The revelation leaves Paedyn reeling, because it means the story of her birth and family was false. Kai tries to steady her panic and insists that her life is not a lie, because Paedyn’s father loved and chose her regardless of blood.
In the final entries, Paedyn learns that her father devoted himself to both the Resistance and to raising her. He trained Paedyn carefully so she could survive by posing as a Psychic and deliberately kept the Resistance from her in order to protect her for as long as possible. When the journal ends, Paedyn is emotionally drained rather than comforted, and when Kai asks whether she is all right, Paedyn answers with weary resilience that she always finds a way to be.
Who Appears
- PaedynReads her father’s journal, discovers the kingdom’s lie, and learns she was adopted.
- KaiShelters with Paedyn, confronts guilt over serving the king, and comforts her through the revelations.
- Paedyn’s fatherJournal author; exposes the king’s conspiracy, founds the Resistance, and is revealed as Paedyn’s adoptive father.
- The kingExposed through the journal as bribing Healers and ordering persecution of innocent Ordinaries.
- AlicePaedyn’s father’s wife, whose death in childbirth precedes Paedyn’s adoption.
- CalumIdentified in the journal as an early Fatal ally who helped build the Resistance.