Cover of Rocky 1: Sandwich

Rocky 1: Sandwich

by Catherine Newman


Genre
Fiction, Contemporary, Chick Lit, Humor and Comedy
Year
2024
Pages
240
Contents

Friday - 36

Overview

Rocky and Nick finally have the long-deferred conversation about her secret abortion. On a quiet beach, Rocky explains the irrational, grief-soaked logic behind her silence, her shame, and her desperate longing afterward. Nick listens, affirms her autonomy, and absorbs her broader anger about reproductive trauma. The exchange is painful but tender, suggesting their marriage will hold, and ends with them going into the ocean together.

Summary

Rocky lies awake before dawn, exhausted and anxious, listening to the sounds of the rented house. Willa returns from being out, briefly acknowledges Rocky, and goes to sleep. Rocky and Nick whisper to each other, each confessing fear that the other will leave. They agree to find time to talk, and Nick mentions Maya was vomiting again—Rocky still hasn't told him about Maya's pregnancy. They decide to walk to the ocean together.

After Rocky checks on her sleeping parents to confirm they're breathing, she and Nick drive to a wild beach and sit on the sand near the receding tide. Nick gently affirms that the abortion was always Rocky's decision and asks whether she feared he'd pressure her. Rocky tries to explain that her silence wasn't rational: she was too in love with Jamie and Willa to bear having another child, but afterward she was devastated by the loss, desperate to get pregnant again, and haunted by the would-be due date.

Rocky reveals she told no one—not her best friend Jo, not even her therapist, whom she feared would pathologize her. She describes how an antidepressant after her later miscarriage helped her finally seek help, but that the abortion felt like a private burden she had to carry alone.

The conversation shifts as Rocky vents her anger at Nick for not seeing her pain and for being physically untouched by reproductive trauma. She rails against the expectation that women remain sexually engaged amid bodily and psychic damage. Nick gently jokes, making her laugh, and she admits she does want him while still feeling they live on different planets. He invites her into the water, and she agrees, wanting to feel weightless.

Who Appears

  • Rocky
    Narrator; sleepless and ashamed, finally articulates to Nick the grief and irrationality behind her hidden abortion.
  • Nick
    Rocky's husband; gently affirms her autonomy, listens without judgment, and comforts her at the beach.
  • Willa
    Rocky's daughter; returns home early morning, briefly acknowledges Rocky before sleeping.
  • Maya
    Pregnant family member; mentioned vomiting again, reminding Rocky of another untold secret.
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