Rocky 1: Sandwich
by Catherine Newman
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Overview
Summary
Rocky's parents drive off, and the family waves goodbye, briefly alarmed when Mort backs the Volvo into a shrub. Willa bursts into tears, confessing she always fears she'll never see them again. Rocky recognizes the anticipatory grief as something Willa inherited from her, and they discuss the possibility of epigenetic trauma as they head back inside.
Willa decides to do laundry before returning to college and asks Rocky to keep her company. The cat Chicken sneaks into her suitcase in a sweet attempt to come with her. In the laundry building, Willa asks Rocky if her conversations with Nick about the abortion went okay, and whether the baby was someone else's. Rocky explains it wasn't, that she felt deep shame about not wanting the baby and later regretted the abortion.
Willa pushes back, worried that voicing regret plays into anti-abortion rhetoric. Rocky insists her personal regret doesn't undermine choice, drawing analogies to other regrettable but legal decisions. She explains she got pregnant again afterward as an antidote to sadness, not atonement, and reaffirms her lifelong activism for abortion access, including her time as a clinic escort.
Willa gently corrects Rocky's assumption that, as a gay woman, she'd never need an abortion, noting she might still get pregnant or face complications. She tells Rocky she doesn't picture being pregnant herself but wants a partner who does. A woman enters with a tantrumming little girl mourning a stinky shell her mother made her leave at the pond. Willa kindly empathizes with the child, who calms down. Rocky reflects that perhaps the purpose of human existence is simply to tell one another, I know how you feel.
Who Appears
- RockyNarrator who candidly discusses her abortion, regret, and abortion activism with Willa, reaching a quiet epiphany about empathy.
- WillaRocky's college-aged daughter who challenges and comforts her mother, then kindly empathizes with a tantrumming child.
- NickRocky's husband, briefly present to comfort her after her parents' departure.
- Rocky's parentsDrive off after the visit, briefly backing into a shrub, prompting Willa's tearful anticipatory grief.
- ChickenThe aging family cat who hides in Willa's suitcase, sweetly trying not to be left behind.
- Laundry room motherA stranger struggling with her tantrumming daughter, who silently shares an exhausted-parent moment with Rocky.
- Little girlTantrumming child mourning a stinky shell taken from her, calmed by Willa's empathy.