Chapter 34
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Alice, devastated after learning Margaret’s secret connection to Hayden, rejects the job and breaks things off with Hayden without revealing the truth. She retreats to her mother’s home, where hard conversations and shared grief over her father lead to reconciliation and deeper understanding. Revived by work on the homestead and an honest talk, Alice begins writing a letter and is surprised when her close friends arrive, invited by her mom to support her.
Summary
Driving back from Margaret’s, Alice struggles with the impossibility of telling Hayden the truth about his connection to Margaret and also refusing to lie. Overwhelmed, she cries at the beach and decides to leave, returning to the bungalow to pack. When Hayden arrives with champagne, Alice announces she is not taking the job; Hayden reveals he withdrew to avoid the competition hurting their relationship. Alice refuses to explain, citing that he should ask Margaret, and asks him to leave. Hayden, hurt and confused, says goodbye, and Alice is shattered.
After texting her mother, Alice returns to her childhood home. She avoids friends’ messages and considers other work, but keeps circling the dilemma of keeping Margaret’s confidence versus being honest with Hayden. She isolates for days, then her mother insists she help with chores.
Alice and her mother work intensively in the garden and around the homestead for two days, which steadies Alice’s mind. At dinner, tension breaks when her mother asks what is wrong, prompting Alice to admit she feels her mother disrespects her career and that she feels like she does not belong in the family. Expecting rejection, Alice instead receives a tender embrace and reassurance that she belongs and is loved.
Alice’s mother explains that as Alice grew up, new interests created distance she struggled to bridge, and that after Alice’s father died she did not know how to be what Alice needed, because he uniquely understood Alice. They grieve him together; Alice laments not preserving more of his stories and songs.
Wanting to repair this, Alice’s mother invites questions, and they set up a phone and recorder. With photo albums open, they take turns telling stories from “commune days” onward, agreeing to share everything with each other.
The next morning, Alice writes a letter, newly clear on what she needs to say. Before she can act, there is a knock at the door: her friends Priya, Cillian, and Bianca arrive, explaining that Alice’s mother invited them. Alice is relieved and grateful as they settle in for coffee and support.
Who Appears
- Alice
narrator; rejects the job, ends things with Hayden without explanation, reconciles with her mother, records family stories, begins writing a letter.
- Hayden
Alice’s love interest; had withdrawn from the job to protect their relationship, is rejected by Alice and leaves, hurt and confused.
- Angie (Alice’s mom)
Alice’s mother; brings Alice home, works with her on the homestead, has an honest, healing conversation, records family history, invites Alice’s friends.
- Priya
friend; arrives to support Alice.
- Cillian
friend; arrives to support Alice and jokes about finally visiting the house.
- Bianca
friend; arrives to support Alice.
- Margaret Ives
subject of the memoir; off-page but central to the conflict as the gatekeeper of the secret Alice refuses to divulge.
- Alice’s father
deceased; remembered and discussed as the parent who understood Alice best.