44: Xavier

Contains spoilers

Overview

After being discharged from the hospital, Xavier returns to work rather than face the loneliness of home after Samantha flies back to California. At the clinic, he shares lunch with Hank, who urges him to prioritize love over pride and possessions. Hank reveals he is the same veterinarian who helped teenage Xavier with his dog Winnie years ago, offering fatherly validation and challenging Xavier to reconsider his choices. The conversation leaves Xavier shaken and reflective about leaving Minnesota to be with Samantha.

Summary

Xavier recounts that most of Samantha’s visit was spent in the hospital, and he was discharged Monday. On Tuesday he drove Samantha to the airport for her return to California and, still physically weak but fever-free, went straight to his clinic to avoid returning to an empty home. Upon arriving, he observed the practice running smoothly under Hank, who was in scrubs with Xavier’s tablet, and felt disoriented by seeing his life continue without him.

Staff greeted Xavier warmly, including his dog Jake from State Farm, and Hank invited him to lunch. In the break room with Tina’s lasagna, they discussed Xavier’s recovery and Hank’s willingness to continue covering. The talk turned personal as both men acknowledged avoiding the void at home after loss or absence; Xavier had little appetite and felt mounting depression after Samantha’s departure.

Hank gently probed Xavier’s situation and suggested Xavier’s illness was tied to heartbreak. When Hank asked why the couple didn’t close the distance, Xavier explained Samantha was the primary caregiver for her mother and could not move, while he felt unable to leave Minnesota because selling the clinic would be financially ruinous. Hank challenged these barriers, sharing his own history of failed clinics and bankruptcy, and insisted that buildings and credit are replaceable while true love is not.

Hank pressed Xavier to consider whether pride and fear were driving his decisions, suggesting he might not love Samantha enough if he wouldn’t choose her. Xavier silently acknowledged he did love her but feared arriving with nothing, letting down employees Maggie and Tina, watching his work be dismantled, and—most painfully—his parents’ satisfaction if he failed. Overwhelmed, Xavier put his head in his hands.

Hank then shifted, asking if Xavier spoke to his parents. After Xavier said no, Hank revealed a personal connection: years ago his clinic, then called New Hope Veterinary on Main, treated a collie mix named Winnie for a young man with “shit parents.” Hank identified Xavier as that teen. Xavier, stunned, realized it was true and told Hank he became a veterinarian because of him.

Hank offered paternal affirmation, saying the people who raise us maintain a hold, not all should be parents, and that he would have been a good dad. He told Xavier he was proud of him and had become a good man. Hank suggested Xavier might be stalling to prove something to his parents, keeping them from seeing him fail, but that this also kept Samantha and Xavier waiting. He urged Xavier to make memories while he still could, declaring he would be disappointed if Xavier didn’t act. Hank cleared his plate and left Xavier to absorb the message.

Who Appears

  • Xavier
    veterinarian and narrator; recently hospitalized for double pneumonia; returns to work, struggles with loneliness and pride, reflects on leaving Minnesota.
  • Samantha
    Xavier’s girlfriend; returned to California to care for her mother; her absence intensifies Xavier’s isolation and choices.
  • Hank
    elder veterinarian covering at the clinic; reveals he treated Xavier’s dog Winnie years ago; offers candid advice to prioritize love over the clinic and expresses pride in Xavier.
  • Tina
    clinic staff; provides lunch and supports operations.
  • Maggie
    clinic staff; had been caring for Xavier’s dog during his illness; part of the team Xavier worries about letting down.
  • Jake from State Farm
    Xavier’s dog; greets Xavier at the clinic.
  • Xavier’s parents
    discussed; estranged and judgmental; their anticipated reaction to Xavier’s potential failure weighs on his decisions.
  • Winnie
    Xavier’s childhood collie mix; discussed as the link revealing Hank’s past connection to Xavier.
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