Chapter 4
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Gran’s posthumous letter to Molly begins in earnest, revealing that Gran was born Flora Gray, the only child in a powerful, wealthy family at Gray Manor. Flora recounts her parents’ coldness, the family’s worship of wealth, the dwindling household staff, and her deep bond with her nursemaid, Mrs. Mead. At seventeen, Flora sought permission to pursue academic exams leading to university; her father grudgingly allowed the exams while asserting control over her future.
Summary
The chapter is a letter from Gran to Molly, opening with the irony that her story begins as her life ends. Gran discloses her true identity as Flora Gray, a young woman raised in opulence at Gray Manor, a vast estate run like an austere fiefdom. Flora’s father, Reginald Gray, is described as a mercurial, money-obsessed patriarch, CEO of Gray Investments, whom young Flora adored despite his severity. Her mother, Audrey Gray, is portrayed as vain, status-fixated, and emotionally cold, resenting Flora for being born a girl.
Flora recalls both parents’ fixation on lineage, money, and appearances, and notes early signs of the family’s financial instability—asset dissolution, merger threats, and dismissals of longtime servants. Amid shrinking staff, two key domestics remained, with Flora closest to Mrs. Mead, her loving nursemaid who offered warmth, guidance, and protection, including during Flora’s first menstruation. Flora began channeling her pain into coded poetry that teachers praised without grasping the cries for help.
Flora emphasizes that, despite mistreatment, she loved her parents and strove to make them proud. She frames a pivotal moment at age seventeen, when she, unlike peers focused on courtship, pursued learning—history, languages, arts, and especially literature. She had already learned French with a tutor and excelled at her private girls’ school, aspiring to take exams that could open the path to university.
The headmaster visited Gray Manor on a rainy day to advocate for Flora’s academic track. Ushered by Uncle Willy, the butler, he faced Reginald and Audrey in Reginald’s imposing office. Reginald belittled the value of a girl’s intellect, while Audrey suggested a finishing school focused on beauty and “womanly arts.”
Summoning courage, Flora asked directly to take the preparatory course and exams to prove herself. Reginald mocked the idea, declaring that a sharp-minded woman was like “a fish on a bicycle,” but ultimately granted permission for her to sit the exams while warning that he would still decide her future. Flora seized on the permission as hope, believing success might win parental support, even as the headmaster’s uneasy expression hinted at doubts she chose to ignore.
Who Appears
- Flora Gray
Gran in her youth; narrator of the letter; wealthy only child at Gray Manor seeking academic advancement.
- Reginald Gray
Flora’s father; CEO of Gray Investments; authoritarian, status-obsessed, grants Flora permission to take exams while asserting control.
- Audrey Gray
Flora’s mother; beauty- and status-driven, favors finishing school over university for Flora.
- Mrs. Mead
Flora’s beloved nursemaid; steadfast source of warmth and support; remained as staff dwindled.
- Uncle Willy
the Gray family butler; escorts the headmaster to Reginald’s office.
- Headmaster
Flora’s school headmaster; advocates for her to take courses and exams leading to university.
- Molly Gray
recipient of Gran’s letter; addressed directly but not present in the past scenes.