Chapter One
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Lila struggles with a failing house, mounting bills, and pressure from her agent to deliver a new book. At school pickup, she witnesses other mothers congratulating Marja and realizes Marja is pregnant with Dan’s child, devastating her. In shock, Lila is roped into organizing costumes for Violet’s Peter Pan production. She tries to hold it together for Violet while avoiding Marja and the school-gate scrutiny.
Summary
Lila keeps a last family photo by her bed, torn between nostalgic grief for the family life she imagined and anger at Dan, occasionally fantasizing about covering his face in the picture. Sleepless and wistful, she mourns the vanished future of holidays, graduations, and weddings that will never be.
While unblocking the children’s bathroom, Lila takes a call from her agent, Anoushka, who pushes for pages of a promised book about living happily single. Lila, overwhelmed and evasive, promises a draft soon despite not having written it. Bill interrupts to relay neighbor complaints about their barking dog, Truant, and a leak seeping through the kitchen ceiling.
An emergency plumber discovers a leak in the soil pipe, drains the system, declares the entire bathroom plumbing needs replacing, and leaves Lila with a hefty bill. Bill offers quiet support and to help, while Lila insists she’s fine. The narrative reflects on Bill moving in after Francesca’s death, his subdued grief, and Lila’s own shock from Dan’s departure and affair, compounded by widowhood in the family; Bill’s presence provides a stabilizing anchor for Lila and the girls.
Lila walks to school for pickup, dreading the judgmental atmosphere at the gates, recalling earlier public humiliation after her marriage collapsed just as her book about fixing marriages came out. Without her mother to buffer social encounters, she isolates herself on the playground’s edge and vows—again—to write the next day.
From across the playground, Lila sees Philippa congratulating Marja, who is not drinking and instinctively covers her midsection. Realizing Marja is pregnant, Lila reels, feigning a phone call to avoid breaking down under the other mothers’ stares. Violet arrives with Mrs. Tugendhat, who cheerfully informs Lila that Violet is the narrator in the upcoming multi-faith, non-nativity end-of-year production.
In a daze, Lila is asked to handle wardrobe for the school’s Peter Pan adaptation, and she agrees despite panic and rising tinnitus-like humming in her head. Spotting Marja leaving via their usual route, Lila diverts Violet down a different street to avoid her. Violet calls out Lila’s odd behavior and recounts Bill’s healthier snack substitution, then distracts her mother with a grotesque playground anecdote about a classmate’s worms. The chapter closes with Lila shakily praising Violet’s blunt wisdom, clinging to her daughter’s clarity in the midst of personal upheaval.
Who Appears
- Lila
Protagonist; frazzled writer and mother coping with divorce, grief, plumbing failures, and the shock of Marja’s pregnancy.
- Violet
Lila’s younger daughter; blunt, observant, narrator in school play, bemused by Lila’s behavior at pickup.
- Bill
Lila’s father; recently widowed, living with Lila, offers quiet practical support amid household crises.
- Anoushka
Lila’s agent; pushes for a new manuscript and timeline, oblivious to Lila’s immediate chaos.
- Marja
Dan’s partner and playground mother; revealed to be pregnant, triggering Lila’s emotional shock.
- Dan
Lila’s ex; left for Marja; his affair and absence loom over Lila’s family and career.
- Mrs. Tugendhat
Teacher; informs Lila that Violet will narrate and recruits Lila to manage Peter Pan costumes.
- Philippa Graham
School-gate mother; catty and performative, publicly congratulates Marja and avoids Lila.
- Celie
Lila’s older daughter; distressed by social media earlier, occasionally handles pickups for pocket money.
- Truant
Family dog; incessant barking prompts neighbor complaints, adding to household stress.
- Gracie
Anoushka’s assistant; pregnant and nauseous, causing office disruptions mentioned on the call.