32. 2009
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Jet photographs a home birth in the middle of the night, witnessing the raw pain and joy of labor and the arrival of a baby boy. The experience triggers reflections on life, death, and her mother Lillian’s choices, including placing Davis for adoption.
Afterward, Jet visits Lillian’s grave to vent anger and grief, then comes to a clear decision about her future: she will apply to become a nurse-midwife. She embraces the risks and realities of birth work, feeling affirmed in her path.
Summary
Awakened at 2:30 a.m., Jet arrives at a birthing center to photograph a third-time mother in labor. She observes the calm, practiced rhythm of the midwife and assistant, the couple’s intimacy, and the room prepared for delivery. As contractions intensify, Jet focuses on dignified images, noting the mother’s physical ordeal and the father’s steady support.
When the mother transitions to hands-and-knees and begins to push, Jet documents the climactic moments: the mother’s roar, the father’s tears, and the baby’s emergence. Jet’s internal monologue wrestles with the brutality and beauty of birth, the immediate separation of cutting the cord, and the paradox that to welcome life is to guarantee loss.
She continues shooting as the newborn cries and then latches to breast, recognizing that the parents want the pain preserved because it is inseparable from preserving life. The room’s happiness affects Jet despite her skepticism, and she captures the reunion of mother and child.
Leaving the birth, Jet drives to Lillian’s grave and releases pent-up anger—about Lillian’s secrecy around Davis’s birth and adoption, about suffering alone, and about dying. She voices questions about Lillian’s relationships and whether Ryan cried when Jet herself was born, and whether death hurts as much as birth.
Jet reflects that eight years after Lillian’s death, grief has not healed; the revelation of Davis has reframed everything. Quieter, she shares her plan at the graveside: she will apply to school to become a nurse-midwife—work that fits what she calls her “doctor-heart.” The certainty feels like solving a mystery she should have known all along.
She acknowledges the hard truths of the field—that not all babies survive and not all mothers keep their babies. Rain begins to fall, and Jet lies beside the headstone under the now-larger oak, opening herself to the downpour and to being alive, sealing her resolve.
Who Appears
- Jet
narrator and photographer; photographs a birth, confronts grief at Lillian’s grave, and decides to apply to become a nurse-midwife.
- Lillian
Jet’s deceased mother; absent but central to Jet’s reflections, anger, and decision-making.
- Ryan
Jet’s father; mentioned in Jet’s questions about whether he cried at her birth.
- Davis Condie
Jet’s half brother; his existence intensifies Jet’s grief and reframes her view of Lillian’s choices.
- Unnamed mother
new; client in labor with her third child, whose birth Jet photographs.
- Unnamed father
new; supports his wife during labor and cuts the cord.
- Midwife and assistant
new; oversee the birth with calm professionalism, modeling the role Jet chooses to pursue.