Chapter Thirteen
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A flashback shows how Joshua’s abrupt exit thrust Alice and Peter into intense late-night work, sparking deep intellectual intimacy and Alice’s nascent love. When the project ends, Peter abruptly distances himself, and Alice’s attempts to reconnect fail as Venice foreshadows Grimes’s coercive hold. Alice later embraces Parfit’s reductionist view of identity to rationalize the rupture, reframing their past closeness as belonging to different selves.
Summary
Joshua, Professor Grimes’s senior assistant, quits abruptly, leaving projects unfinished as Grimes rushes toward a conference deadline. Alice and Peter are drafted to fill the gap, working unpaid late nights that become a crucible for connection. Through shared problem-solving, jokes, and discovery, Alice experiences a new kind of love grounded in intellectual intimacy and mutual attention.
They trade quirks and observations—his humming and late-night manic bursts, her chalky forehead streaks and sleep-lies—argue about puzzles and theory, and build an in-joke shorthand that makes them feel uniquely paired. Laughter and companionable silence convince Alice she has found someone who moves at her frequency.
When the term ends and Grimes’s presentation succeeds, the work stops and Peter abruptly withdraws. Alice searches for him around campus, receives only polite distance, and leaves a note asking to talk; he never replies. Gossip and humiliation follow. She recalls going to Venice, where she learns she cannot refuse Grimes, and after returning everything deteriorates; for a year she lowers her gaze when passing Peter.
That summer, reading Parfit’s Reasons and Persons, Alice adopts a reductionist view of identity. She concludes their intimacy belonged to different versions of themselves and that people can change enough to become strangers. This rationalization helps her explain Peter’s retreat and her own inability to reclaim what was lost.
Who Appears
- Alice Law
Narrator; falls for Peter during late lab work, later shunned; reframes loss via Parfit’s identity reductionism.
- Peter Murdoch
Collaborator who bonds with Alice during the project, then abruptly withdraws and ignores her note.
- Professor Grimes
Supervisor whose deadline forces Alice and Peter’s overtime; later exerts coercive influence signaled by Venice.
- Joshua
Head lab assistant who quits suddenly, triggering the workload that brings Alice and Peter together.
- Derek Parfit
Philosopher; his book shapes Alice’s view that identity is discontinuous, explaining the lost relationship.