Chapter 19

Contains spoilers

Yara goes to a high-end salon feeling out of place and frugal, concerned about spending money on herself.
She's greeted warmly at the salon and meets Rebecca, her stylist, who suggests a significant haircut and color, despite Yara's hesitation.
Yara agrees to the change, looking for something different, though she is filled with self-doubt and memories of her critical mother.
As Rebecca works, applying color and then cutting Yara's hair, Yara grapples with her reflection and painful past memories.
After her hair is styled, Yara is taken aback by her transformation and struggles internally with feelings of discomfort and undesirability.
Nadia, her family, and her in-laws compliment Yara's new look, but Yara remains unsure and surprised by their reactions.
Fadi, Yara's husband, reacts with mixed feelings about her hair change and inadvertently implies he preferred it before.
Yara questions her decision and reflects on her self-worth, feeling a deep need for Fadi's affection and approval.
In a moment of vulnerability, Yara craves the reassurance and love from Fadi, feeling disconnected and yearning for genuine connection.
She ponders whether her true curse is being unlovable, a fear stemming from feeling unloved even in her own family.
The chapter ends with Yara contemplatively looking out the window, enveloped in the growing darkness, pondering her feelings of isolation.

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