Yara reflects on her troubled childhood and its impact on her views of relationships, motherhood, love, grief, and isolation.
She expresses a desire to be free from a persistent, oppressive feeling that has followed her from childhood into adult life.
At nine years old, Yara wished she was dead due to the overwhelming pain of being alive.
As she grew up, she imagined various ways to escape her feelings, including fatal illnesses or accidents.
Despite her thoughts, Yara survived her difficult upbringing and believes she has moved past these experiences, though she is still reconciling with them.