Yara's daily routines, from getting the girls ready for school to cooking dinner, are becoming increasingly sluggish and laden with guilt.
She avoids showering with her husband, Fadi, by timing her showers before he returns home from meetings with potential business partners.
Yara feels like a failure and tries to hide this from her daughters by not meeting their eyes during bedtime.
She questions her ability to leave her husband and start anew, burdened by guilt, shame, and self-doubt as she heads to her therapy session with Esther.
Yara is unable to articulate her feelings and covers her face in her hands when asked by Esther if she is okay upon arriving at her office.
Yara admits she feels unable to leave Fadi after he loses his job and blames herself for his misfortune.
Esther tries to alleviate Yara's self-blame by assuring her that Fadi's job loss was not her fault and she's not responsible for the decisions of her husband or the abuse endured by her mother.
The chapter reveals a traumatic childhood memory where Yara feels responsible for her father finding out about her mother's affair.
Yara struggles with a deep-rooted belief that she is a bad person who causes suffering to others, including her husband, which makes her question the purpose of her own life.
Esther notices Yara's disturbing emotional state and inquires if she has thoughts of self-harm.
Yara internally acknowledges long-standing detachment from life and considers her daughters' well-being over her own suicidal thoughts.
Esther recognizes the severity of Yara's feelings and suggests increasing therapy sessions, possibly considering medication and the importance of having a strong support system.
The chapter reflects on Yara's early experiences with depression in her marriage, and Fadi's distant yet supportive reactions.
Fadi's coping mechanisms for emotional detachment are speculated to be either learned from his father's criticism or a natural human tendency to self-protect.
Esther asks Yara if there is anyone else besides her husband who could provide support, but Yara insists there is no one else, dismissing thoughts of someone named Silas.